It's 2:00 a.m., I just got done masturbating, while my husband snores away next to me. He declined sex with me tonight because he was "too angry" about my business dinner running an hour and a half later than I had anticipated. We fought, he went to sleep, I stewed angrily for hours, finally jerked off, and now I'm emailing a total stranger for advice. A typical night in suburbia right? Here's the thing...I've been married and 100% monogamous for 15 years. For the past year, all I can think about is wanting to sleep with other men. I agree there are times when adultery is a reasonable alternative to misery and divorce, but in my case sex is the best part of our marriage. Sex is the only thing my husband is good at. Otherwise he's a pretty lousy husband and father. I am an accomplished career woman who at home gets treated like a child. Tonight, I walked in the door—after a long day at work and a stressful business dinner—only to be reprimanded by my husband for being late (9:30 vs 8:00). He treats me like I am his teenage daughter, who is always out past curfew. This is VERY typical behavior for him. At the time we were married, he was attracted to the strong independent woman in me, yet he's been trying to put a leash on me ever since. For the sake of our two children, I've chosen to endure rather than divorce. Although he sexually satisfies me, Im feeling increasingly suffocated and put down. Seeing another man would be thrilling.
That's what I was longing for in the throws of masturbation tonight, someone else. But, is that justifiable? Sex is about the only thing I can turn to my husband for, so why do I want to get it from someone else?
Desperate Wife
My response after the jump...